Looking for an Escape

Some of you may instantly be able to relate to this and some may not understand this too well, but I felt it was an important topic to cover and one that has touched me personally. I have anxiety and have had it my whole life, it affects me greatly from my job to my relationships and something that I am constantly working on.

When things get overwhelming, it’s like an instant response to want to flee and escape. Yes, it may help us temporarily, but it will only harm us in the long run. We may change jobs, move far away, change our lifestyle, but our inner self remains the same and therefore we can never truly run from what we are trying to escape from.

When caught in something emotionally draining or anxiety-provoking it makes sense to want to remove yourself from that stimulus. The hard part, but the necessary part is to face the issue and try to remedy it and learn from it. Running away will temporarily relieve us, but if we never face it, or not try to resolve it, the issue at hand will follow us. You may have heard the saying that basically states that life is a test and that what we do not “pass” we will be presented with over and over again until we can learn to master it.

As hard as it is, try to sit back and focus on what the issue could be telling you, what message is it sending you, and how you can try to resolve the issue at hand. By no means will this be easy, but in the long run will be very beneficial to you!

Your Energy is Precious

When you are with other people they omit certain levels of energy that you can almost feel. You get good vibes from some and negative vibes from others. Your intuition is letting you know who may not be associating with you for the right reasons. We ourselves have energy, every living thing has energy and although we feel like we are unstoppable and without limits, we can so easily crash and burn if we do not protect our energy.

Many things in our lives consume our energy. Our daily routines, jobs, relationships, we are constantly putting out pieces of ourselves. Our lives require constant attention from us. We must decide where to divide our energy. It is so important not to head towards a breakdown, we can prevent that by making sure to take time out for ourselves to regroup and refresh. We also have to be careful who we allow in our lives because people can drain us of energy very quickly.

By default, many of us naturally want to be there for others, sometimes it’s as almost if we take on their problems. We want to help them and we will do anything in our power to be there for our loved ones. Sometimes, when this is prolonged, you can start to feel very drained and to a point resentful to the person who has drained you of your energy. We can only take care of others if we take care of ourselves. Be good to others and take care of each other, but also remember to guard your energy, for it is finite!

Look in the Mirror

When I was younger I focused a lot of my energy outward. I was always helping others and being there for them, it made me happy and still does to this day. What I wasn’t realizing was that I spent all of my energy helping others, that I had no energy left to take care of myself.

I was told many times in my younger years that I needed to focus more inward because my energy was always being focused out and away from me. I understood what was meant by this, but I didn’t feel that I needed to at that time. My happiness depended on other people and I failed to look within to find happiness. It took many years and many burnouts to finally understand the importance of what I was being told. I finally understood the importance of self-reflection and working to better myself and become the best version of me that I could.

I still very much love to take care of other people to this day, but my sole happiness does not depend on it anymore. I used to have to constantly be expending energy on others in order to feel happy and I have learned that in order to help others, I need to focus inward and help myself first! Take time to take care of the person that you see looking back at you in the mirror, so that you can put the best you out there in the world!

The Secret Behind Triggers

Do you ever feel like you are just going about your day and a certain situation, or person’s actions changes your mood in an instant?  We all have certain triggers in life that evoke a very strong and emotional response from us, these triggers vary greatly from one person to the next, but are very powerful as they are connected deep inside of us.

A trigger is something that evokes a strong emotional response, something that goes way deeper than average.  Triggers are anything that remind us of certain events from out past, they can be arguments, holidays, abandonment, traumas, public speaking, socializing, medical issues, the list is truly endless.  Sometimes we are triggered by something we are not even aware of, but our subconscious picks up on it.

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I am a pretty even-tempered person, even though my mind is steadily going, I’ve been told that I have a very laid back personality.  Just like anyone else, I have things that trigger me.  For me, the biggest thing that triggers me is when someone disrespects me.  I make every conscious effort in my being to respect others, so when that is not given, or returned, I have a very hard time dealing with it.  I am also triggered by being in a group of people, certain social situations, and being talked down to, or criticized.  These all create a deep emotional response within me.  I know that these things are triggers for me, so I work extra hard to think logically and not let my emotions get the best of me when they arise.  Due to triggers often being tied to past events, it’s even more difficult to control your response, which is often quick and automatic, but by realizing what upsets you and allowing yourself distance from the trigger, you can better manage and reflect.

Knowing your triggers and knowing yourself in general are very beneficial when encountering things that you know set you off.  If you are getting into a situation that you know will cause you stress and anxiety, you can prepare yourself mentally and hope for a better outcome than if you had not prepared.  Often times talking out a series of events, or even journaling can bring about some amazing insight that you may have otherwise not found.

It’s natural to want to avoid what triggers us because we don’t want the unpleasant feelings that come with it, however if we do not push ourselves to go against our fears, we will never conquer them.  Growth happens when you make an effort to challenge what controls you!

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Sometimes it Takes a Reminder

We go through life day in and day out, sometimes unknowingly on autopilot. Sometimes we get so used to a routine, our possessions, the people in our lives, that they become a natural part of us and we forget that these things are not necessarily ours to have forever. Sometimes it takes a reminder to truly realize and cherish what we have.

I believe that most people are thankful and grateful for what they have. They give thanks for all of the blessings in their lives and don’t take anything for granted, but when life presents situations and circumstances that take away something, or someone, that is when we realize how valuable it really is. There is a quote by Joni Mitchell “Don’t it always seem to go, that you don’t know what you’ve got til it’s gone.” Like I mentioned before, most of the time we do realize, just not to as great of an extent until we no longer have it.

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Take the Covid-19 pandemic for example. We were all completely and unexpectedly uprooted from our daily routines and into a completely different one. Something as small as getting up and going to work was no longer the case for many people. Another example, you have a car that gets you from Point A to Point B, but one day your car breaks down. You might get a rental car, or get a ride with a friend, or loved one, but it isn’t until your car is no longer that there you realize it’s true value. I am sure that people realize the value of life and how precious it is, however that is greatly amplified when we lose someone either by death, or by a broken relationship. It is often at a funeral that we are reminded of how precious life is and how in the blink of an eye the people that we have in our lives today sadly may not be there tomorrow. We tend to think naturally that what we have, we will always have.

Being grateful can bring so much quality to our lives. There’s so much to be thankful for and things that have become natural to us in our lives like the roof over our heads, still for some people is something that they are praying for. It’s very difficult wanting something so badly in life, there is no doubt about that, but if we look at what we have instead of what we lack, life can become a little easier for all of us!

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