Can’t Sleep? Try This

I usually have the ability to fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. I’ve been that way ever since I was a child. My parents joke that when I was little, I used to tell them that I wasn’t tired and then as soon as I laid down in bed, I was out like a light!

There are times, however, when my mind is racing, my nerves are unsettled, and I am feeling so restless. There are times when it’s 2:00 a.m. and I can be found still lying in bed wide awake. In those moments, there is something that I turn to.

Finding Out

One day I was scrolling through YouTube videos, and I came across a video for Delta Waves. I had never seen any of the videos before. I thought that I would check it out.

I am a huge fan of YouTube. I love to look at all sorts of videos from cooking to vlogs and funny clips. I just really enjoy the variety of what YouTube has to offer. I am always discovering something new, such as this!

Delta Waves

I clicked on one of the videos like the one I will share below, and I was almost instantly calmed. It reminded me of meditation music. I was able to focus on the beautiful and relaxing beat as I drifted away instead of being consumed by my racing thoughts.

I found delta waves to be so relaxing and filled me with much peace. The music almost put me in a trance. I could feel myself getting lost in it. No matter what mood I am in, this beat has the ability to soothe me, and in most cases, I fall asleep rather quickly. Here is one of the videos to give you an idea of what delta waves music sounds like.

YouTube video by Silent Rhythm

I use videos like this one to help me sleep on those nights when I have trouble. I also use these videos when I am stressed out or I just need to get my mind to stop running on a hamster wheel.

Have you heard of delta waves music before? If you listened to the video above, how did it make you feel?


Living with Medical Issues

Growing up as a young girl, I was fortunately very healthy and hardly had any medical issues. I routinely went to the doctor for checkups and besides several cases of bronchitis, a few illnesses, and the common cold, thankfully I was well most of the time.

My life would change drastically in my early twenties and unfortunately to this day, it has not stopped. The irony of it all is that I live a healthy lifestyle. I am active, I love to walk, and I eat balanced even though I love junk food as well! I drink a lot of water, and I try to stay as socially active as I can, though I have become quite withdrawn in the last few years.

I am now in my late thirties and when my dear grandparents were alive, I used to joke that they were healthier than me and they were in their nineties! It’s really not that funny, but sometimes in life, we just have to make a joke to keep things light.

Here’s the Story

A few months after I graduated college, I started having a lot of strange symptoms. They ranged from mild to extreme and affected me mentally and physically. Some of the symptoms that I was having were headaches, dizziness, severe joint pain, lack of appetite, hot flashes, muscle pain, and severe brain fog.

I went to so many different specialists and I wasn’t able to get a diagnosis. A year went by, and I grew sicker and sicker until I was bedridden. I was sleeping close to 22 hours a day. I had no quality of life, I had no appetite, and my brain fog was so bad that I could not recall memories or even events that happened that day. I knew something was terribly wrong with me, but no one could tell me what it was. I remember truly feeling like I was dying.

After many doctors’ visits and tests, I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Lyme Disease caused by a bite from an infected tick. By the time the doctors found out what was wrong, the bacteria that causes Lyme Disease (Borrelia burgdorferi), was in every single organ and part of my body. Typically, Lyme Disease is caught early, and antibiotics are enough to get rid of the disease, however, in cases like mine where the disease goes undetected, the effects can be lifelong.

I had a great circle of friends at the time, but once they realized how sick I was and that I could no longer party and hang out with them, they dropped me like a hot plate. I lost every single one of my friends except for my best friend who I still know today. I felt so alone, especially being this sick at such a young age. I recall one of my friends being really upset with me when I told her that I was too tired to get coffee, no one understood.

The Effects

Due to my condition being undiagnosed for so long, it wreaked havoc on my body and unfortunately, the damage is permanent. The doctor said with the severity of my symptoms, that the bacteria could have been in my body for up to 6+ years and was possibly dormant for some time. I have had more surgeries than I can count on two hands due to nerve issues and other complications from this bacterium invading my body.

Mentally, I have experienced more depression and anxiety since this event in my life. Lyme Disease can change the way that the brain works. I also have a hard time recalling certain memories. I suffer from brain fog and lack of concentration more than before. MRI scans have shown several lesions on my brain where the bacteria has caused damage.

I can never go more than a few months without a new medical issue popping up. I have seen so many specialists and have had so many tests done over the years. In a way, this is highly nerve-wracking because I never know what will happen next. I am just thankful that I have a very strong immune system that keeps me going. I am thankful that I hardly ever get sick, but medically I am a mystery.

I have also been diagnosed with other medical issues that have stemmed from Lyme Disease like Fibromyalgia. My joints hurt every day and I feel numbness and tingling in my arms and legs sometimes. This disease has changed my life forever. I have learned to deal with it, but it has made me see life in a very different way.


Minus some scars from the many surgeries that I have had, no one would ever know that I have been through this. I would like to take a moment to remind everyone that what we see on the outside may not be what has or is happening on the inside. Looks are very deceiving. Everyone is struggling with something and has many battles in their lifetime.

Having medical issues at a young age has taught me a lot. It has reminded me that life is precious and that we can never take our health for granted because it could be gone in a heartbeat. It has taught me that only your true friends will stick around. Hard times will show you who they are. These friends are the ones that will stay by your side because they love you and not because it’s convenient.

Being chronically ill has taught me that illness and struggle knows no age. The body is a miraculous thing, but it will not work perfectly forever, we must take great care of ourselves in every way possible. Had I not lived a healthy lifestyle, the effects could have been even worse than they are.

This experience reminded me that life can change at any moment and that what we have today may not always be there. This experience taught me how much strength I have inside even when I felt like I was failing. My persistence to get better and thrive was never dimmed, I didn’t give up hope even though I came close. We must always keep hope alive, sometimes it is all that we have.

In Closing

No matter what happens in life, I like to think that it happens to make us stronger people. That it leaves us with a certain strength that we didn’t have before. Our story can be told over and over again to help others who are now following our path in life, we can be a source of hope and inspiration. We can make a difference in someone else’s life by sharing our knowledge and what we have been through.

To those of you that struggle with health issues, I know that it can be a very sad, lonely, confusing, and scary time. You are not alone, there is someone that understands you. To those that don’t have medical issues, your support for someone that does can be a lifesaver!

We all have a story to share, sometimes we may not be ready to share it, but when we are, the impact that it could have on the world is infinite.

A Surprising Supplement That Helps Anxiety

Disclaimer: Please do not take any information in this article as medical advice. I am not a doctor or a licensed professional. Always consult a doctor before starting a new supplement. 

Please read the disclaimer before you read this story. I have dealt with anxiety my entire life. My first memories of feeling anxious and uncomfortable were around three years old. I remember as a child worrying about anything and everything.

Once I entered my pre-teen and teenage years, I become even more anxious and on top of that, I started experiencing severe social anxiety. I could hardly look anyone in the eye and the palms of my hands would sweat from being so nervous. I felt like I never knew what to say or how to carry a conversation.

Once I went through my teenage years and become a young adult, I got over the social anxiety with much exposure to other people. I began to slowly gain enough confidence in myself to function properly in society.

Now, being in my late 30s, I don’t deal with social anxiety anymore, however, I do have anxiety when it comes to relationships and other people getting close to me. Life experiences have made me weary in some ways.

Besides that, anxiety is unfortunately a part of my everyday life. I have severe anxiety. I am constantly worrying and thinking of all that can happen. My thoughts plague me every day, all day long. I hardly get a break from feeling panicky and anxious, it truly disrupted my life in all aspects. I am working hard on maintaining a positive mindset and viewing situations and circumstances in a better light.

My History

I have tried so many medications for anxiety. The great thing is that almost all of them worked beautifully, the downside is that I am allergic to certain ingredients inside every one of them that I have tried. Sometimes the allergic reactions were so bad that I had to go immediately to the emergency room. My doctors felt that it was too much of a risk for me to be on any medications. As I mentioned in another story, my body is highly sensitive to medicine, it doesn’t take much to affect me, I have many allergies to medications as well.

I went through 6 months of therapy and that was one of the best decisions that I have ever made. My therapist helped me see myself and the world around me in a different way. My anxiety was at the lowest it has ever been. It was worth the money and persistence. I even created a binder with all of the papers and exercises that I did so that I could refer back to them once I left therapy.

I did really great after leaving, but then about 6 months after I left therapy, my anxiety started creeping back. After a year, the anxiety that I felt was just like it always had been. I felt defeated. I wasn’t able to maintain this new “freedom” that I had experienced.

A New Hope

A while ago, I reached out to one of my doctors to let them know that I wanted to try something else to relieve my anxiety. My anxious state of mind is usually not this bad, but some life events have happened recently that have left me in a very unsettled state. It was suggested that I try magnesium, not just any magnesium, but specifically magnesium glycinate. I was more than happy to hear that this is a normal and common supplement with minimal side effects. I was open to trying it!

I easily found the supplement at Walmart on a shelf in the vitamin aisle. I started taking it about a month ago every single night and I have noticed a definite improvement! I am so excited about this because I have had no side effects so far and it helps calm my mind. I love even more that it is a supplement.

I am so thankful to my doctor who gave me hope in this area when I felt like I didn’t have much. I continue to take my supplement and I just pray that the effects will stay even when I take it for a longer period. It is not a miracle supplement, I still struggle with anxiety, but it does take the edge off and allows me to function much better each day.

To My Readers

For those of you that suffer from anxiety, if you haven’t already, I encourage you to talk with your doctors about what you are feeling. Usually, even in unique circumstances such as mine, there is a way to help, even if it is not the “normal” way. We all deserve peace of mind!

Wait…I Can’t See

About 10 years ago I had a really scary experience. One that I had never experienced or heard about.

I was just going about my life when all of a sudden, I started seeing flashing lights in both of my eyes. The best way that I can describe it would be that it’s almost like looking into a kaleidoscope or seeing sparkly broken glass in your visual field.

Through the Motions

I remember not knowing what to do. What is this? Should I go to the ER? What caused my vision to change so abruptly?

I remember feeling terrified as my vision became more and more obscured. With each passing minute, I felt that I was losing more and more of my “sight.”

I decided to ride through the motions of it all because I had never experienced this before. The visual disturbances lasted about 30 minutes and following that was a headache.

Dr. Google

Once I regained my sight, I remember going straight to Dr. Google to look up my symptoms. I wanted to see what this experience could be and if it was a true medical emergency.

It didn’t take long before I was staring at a term called “ocular migraine.” I read through the description and symptoms and BAM! It matched; this is what I was experiencing.

A Visit with the Doctor

I made an appointment with an ophthalmologist. I remember her doing many different eye exams and tests. She also dilated my eyes to get a better view of my eye health and see if anything else could be causing this issue.

Thankfully, the eye doctor told me that it was in fact an ocular migraine and thankfully my eye health was good. This new diagnosis was a relief to me. See, Dr. Google can be right sometimes!

My Experience

I get ocular migraines typically every three to four months. They come on suddenly without much warning and have appeared in the least convenient places.

I’ve gotten them while driving and I had to pull over, while shopping in the stores, and at work several times where I have to go to a dark room and close my eyes.

These are my biggest ocular migraine triggers:

  • Stress
  • Fatigue/Lack of sleep
  • Alcohol
  • Too much screen time
  • Hormones
  • Not resting my eyes enough

This is what I do to stop an ocular migraine attack:

  • Using a cold cloth on my eyes
  • Essential oil roll-on that goes on my temples
  • Laying in a dark room
  • Deep breathing, trying to relax my mind
  • Closing my eyes

It Could Be Worse

Thankfully, at least for me, ocular migraines are more of an annoyance than they are painful. The visual disturbances are very difficult to deal with because it gets to the point where I can’t read any words and parts of the room or people’s faces are blurred out by bright sparkling lights in my field of vision.

The headache that follows the visual disturbances is usually mild for me and one that I don’t typically need to treat with any medication. This is unlike a true migraine; I have heard those are incredibly painful.

One scary thing that I learned recently is that having ocular migraines puts me at a much higher risk for a stroke because they are caused by a lack of blood flow and/or collapse of the blood vessels in the eye. The fact that this is happening in my eyes, makes it possible for it to happen in my brain.

Lately, They Have Increased

For the last few months, I’ve been getting ocular migraines way more often than usual, and I can pinpoint why. Unfortunately, all of my triggers are present in my life at the moment.

I have been losing a lot of sleep, I’ve been more stressed than usual, I hardly ever drink, but I did for Christmas and New Year’s, and I’ve been reading and writing a lot more!


Have you or someone you know ever experienced an ocular migraine?

The Power of Peppermint

There are a few lovely scents that come to mind this time of year, one of them is peppermint!

Peppermint is one of those flavors that some people do not like. I love the taste of peppermint, but some of my loved ones are not a fan.

Peppermint has many great uses and properties. For those that don’t like the taste, if you enjoy the smell, peppermint oil can have a similar effect!

Uses For Peppermint

  1. This herb can help relieve headaches. I have a peppermint essential oil roll-on that I rub on my temples when I get a headache, it works wonders!
  2. Peppermint can reduce stress and anxiety. Just the smell alone is enough to help with this but consuming and/or applying it to your skin helps as well. Sometimes when I’m feeling stressed or anxious, I will use my essential oil roll-on, or eat a few mints.
  3. It can make you feel fresh and clear your mind. I love mints and peppermint chewing gum. Whenever I have these, the smell and taste are so invigorating, it really peps up my mind! I find the taste very refreshing and pleasant.
  4. Peppermint can quell queasiness. It has helped me with morning sickness, indigestion, and helped me tremendously when feeling nauseous.

A Christmas Scent

Peppermint always reminds me of Christmas and the holiday season! This is another reason why I love the taste and scent.

The ever-popular candy cane has been a holiday tradition for many years. They are eaten for fun, hung on Christmas trees, and even tied to a gift or card. Just seeing a candy cane makes me happy because of the memories associated with it!

Peppermint Joy

Enjoy a candy cane or get lost in the aroma of peppermint essential oil and see where it takes you!