What Now?

You have reached a moment that you have been waiting for months, years, possibly your entire life for. So many feelings rush over you as you cannot believe that what you have been longing for is finally here. You sit in a state of shock, surprise, relief, happiness, and awe. Slowly over time, another feeling creeps in.

There can be many emotions that we feel while waiting for something that we truly desire with all of our hearts. We may feel sad, angry, hopeful, scared, or anxious, we may even feel that it will never happen. We sit anxiously awaiting to be in a relationship, to have kids, to be married, to land our dream job, to get a college degree, and sometimes our biggest goal is just to live comfortably.

Whatever we have deeply desired in our life and eventually ended up getting, our initial response is probably elation and relief. We cannot believe that we have finally obtained and received all that we have longed for. Much of the time, our hearts will stay content with what we have now added to our lives, however sometimes another emotion sets in shortly after the excitement wears off. We might start to feel regret and guilt, something we never expected, which can make it all very confusing.

Regret and guilt can accompany our newfound excitement. Sometimes after we finally receive what we have been desiring, it loses its appeal, and sometimes regret starts to sink in after our initial happiness because we feel that we should be more excited, or that it didn’t feel as great as we expected. Maybe we expected the outcome to change our lives and it didn’t change much for us, we might have started to even feel as if we did not deserve this wonderful thing that happened to us.

These negative feelings can truly wreak havoc on our minds and bodies. We may start to think that we are losing our minds because we finally got what we wanted and now we don’t want it anymore. We start to question if we know what we truly want in life and if we even know ourselves as well as we thought that we did. There is a saying that “we always want what we don’t have.” I have found this to be true. We don’t know what we are getting into, we just desire something that we do not have.

The mind works in mysterious ways, we may be influenced by others, we may feel like we are expected to conform to society’s norms, or we may just truly want something for our lives. Whatever they may be, our feelings are valid, and we should take the time to sort them out and explore why we may be feeling such a way. Be easy on yourself, we are only human!

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